{"id":3309,"date":"2016-09-26T05:30:29","date_gmt":"2016-09-26T12:30:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.nicksenger.com\/onecatholiclife\/?p=3309"},"modified":"2016-09-25T23:24:41","modified_gmt":"2016-09-26T06:24:41","slug":"carry-on-wayward-son-k-tel-kansas-and-a-story-of-regret","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/nicksenger.com\/onecatholiclife\/carry-on-wayward-son-k-tel-kansas-and-a-story-of-regret","title":{"rendered":"Carry On Wayward Son: K-Tel, Kansas, and a Story of Regret"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"LeftovertureIt’s hard to believe that it’s been 40 years since “Carry On Wayward Son” first rocked the airwaves. But it’s true. Kansas released their breakthrough album Leftoverture<\/em><\/a> in 1976, and “Carry On Wayward Son” hit number 11 on the charts in early 1977. That song was so important to me as a teenager that it was one of two song titles that I wrote in permanent marker on the front of the boom box I owned as a kid. But as much as I love that song, it also reminds me of one of my more painful high school memories, and one of my biggest regrets.<\/p>\n

As I’ve written earlier<\/a>, the first new album I ever owned was a cassette of The Long Run<\/em> by the Eagles. But that’s not exactly true. That was my first new album by a single artist. The first album that I bought with my own money was a 1979 K-Tel cassette called The Rock Album<\/em>. If I had to pick just one album that was the soundtrack of my adolescence, it would be The Rock Album<\/em>. Kansas, Boston, Styx, Toto, ELO–the bands on this album became constant companions through my high school and college years. There were some great songs on that album:<\/p>\n

    \n
  1. “Don’t Bring Me Down” by Electric Light Orchestra<\/li>\n
  2. “Dirty White Boy” by Foreigner<\/li>\n
  3. \"The“Two Tickets to Paradise” by Eddie Money<\/li>\n
  4. “Something’s on the Move” by Jethro Tull<\/li>\n
  5. “Don’t Fear the Reaper” by Blue Oyster Cult<\/li>\n
  6. “The Dream Police” by Cheap Trick<\/li>\n
  7. “Bad Case of Loving You (Doctor, Doctor)” by Robert Palmer<\/li>\n
  8. “Renegade” by Styx<\/li>\n
  9. “More Than a Feeling” by Boston<\/li>\n
  10. “Too Rolling Stoned” by Robin Trower<\/li>\n
  11. “Lovin’, Touchin’, Squeezin'” by Journey<\/li>\n
  12. “Isn’t It Time” by the Babys<\/li>\n
  13. “Carry on Wayward Son” by Kansas<\/li>\n
  14. “Hold the Line” by Toto<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    In fact, I love that album so much, that I’ve recreated it digitally with iTunes, and I play it when I’m feeling particularly nostalgic–which happens to be more and more frequently these days.<\/p>\n

    As I suppose it was intended to, The Rock Album<\/em> got me interested in each of those bands, and because I loved “Carry on Wayward Son” so much, I eventually bought the full album\u00a0Leftoverture<\/em>. I thought the album art was cool, and I loved hearing Robbie Steinhardt’s violin soaring among all the electric guitars and keyboards. I studied the album’s cryptic yet spiritual lyrics, trying to figure out who Father Padilla might be, and learning that a magnum opus was an artists’s most important work.\u00a0It wasn’t long before I became a huge Kansas fan and was determined to collect all their albums.<\/p>\n

    But that’s where this story becomes painful to tell.<\/p>\n

    \"MonolithYou see, during our senior in high school, some friends and I were over at our friend Shelby’s house. Shelby used to have us over all the time, and he loved music as much as I did. This particular day we got to talking about how much we loved Kansas, and I found out he had a cassette of Monolith<\/em>, the one Kansas album I didn’t own. When he found out I didn’t have it, he offered to lend it to me. Shelby was generous like that. I took it eagerly and listened to it for several months. Before school got out for the summer, Shelby asked me for the album back. To my shame and regret, I lied and told him I had already given it back to him. I wanted to keep it so that my collection would be complete, and because I liked the album so much. Shelby looked at me for a few seconds, then shrugged his shoulders and said he must have forgotten. I don’t know if he knew I was lying, or if it just wasn’t a big deal to him. And I’ll never know, because we each went our separate ways after graduation, and a few years later Shelby was involved in a fatal car accident.<\/p>\n

    He was trying to change the cassette tape in his car stereo when he lost control of the truck he was driving and went off the highway into a ditch.<\/p>\n

    I never got the chance to give Monolith<\/em> back to Shelby or tell him how sorry I was for stealing it.<\/p>\n

    It’s a little thing, I know, a piece of plastic that probably cost five bucks back in 1980. And people were borrowing tapes and dubbing copies all the time. But this looms large in my memory as a betrayal of friendship and a moment of intense selfishness.<\/p>\n

    A monolith is “a large single upright block of stone, especially one shaped into a pillar or monument.” That copy of Monolith<\/em> that Shelby gave to me has become a monument to a painful incident in my life and a reminder that you never know how much time you have to reconcile with loved ones. Even the titles of many of Monolith<\/em>‘s songs remind me of the incident: “On the Other Side,” “Angels Have Fallen,” “How My Soul Cries Out for You,” “A Glimpse of Home,” “Away from You,” “Stay Out of Trouble,” “Reason to Be.”<\/p>\n

    So here’s to Shelby, and to not waiting until it’s too late.<\/p>\n

    Carry On Wayward Son<\/strong><\/p>\n

    (Chorus)
    \nCarry on my wayward son,
    \nFor there’ll be peace when you are done
    \nLay your weary head to rest
    \nNow don’t you cry no more<\/p>\n

    Once I rose above the noise and confusion
    \nJust to get a glimpse beyond the illusion
    \nI was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high
    \nThough my eyes could see I still was a blind man
    \nThough my mind could think I still was a mad man
    \nI hear the voices when I’m dreamin’,
    \nI can hear them say<\/p>\n

    (Chorus)
    \nCarry on my wayward son,
    \nFor there’ll be peace when you are done
    \nLay your weary head to rest
    \nNow don’t you cry no more<\/p>\n

    Masquerading as a man with a reason
    \nMy charade is the event of the season
    \nAnd if I claim to be a wise man, it surely
    \nmeans that I don’t know
    \nOn a stormy sea of moving emotion
    \nTossed about I’m like a ship on the ocean
    \nI set a course for winds of fortune, but
    \nI hear the voices say<\/p>\n

    Carry on, you will always remember
    \nCarry on, nothing equals the splendor
    \nNow your life’s no longer empty
    \nSurely heaven waits for you<\/p>\n

    (Chorus)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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